ang banana cake - bow!!

i was feeling depressed (again!) last night.. having bouts of depression lately - ewan ko ba... :( .. and to fight the depression off - isip ako what to do - to clean or to cook or to bake... i have a couple of bananas na na-over ripe na nga yung iba.. sitting in the kitchen.. hmm, bake na lang ng banana cake. this will be my second time to do this.. hope it will come out nice..

sige, measure-takal-beat-mash till all is mixed na.. placed the pan in the oven.. sabi mga 30 minutes daw... ok lang. basa muna tayo FB natin.. aba.. sinilip ko sa glass door ng oven - ehh? bakit parang hindi yata umaalsa? open ako konti - oo na .. bad mag-open ng oven door! kaso gusto ko makita eh!... ay palpak yata...

sige medyo maaga pa naman... lipas ilang minuto ulit - aba umalsa na! masaya na ako - ang babaw ano... anyways.. tingnan daw if the toothpick inserted comes out clean....eh .. ndi pa as in super hindi pa!! nataranta ang beauty ko kasi medyo nagba-brown na sa gilid yung pan.. hahaha...

sabi ng friends ko sa fb baka madami banana.. after few more minutes ayun - nasunog este - naluto din.. hehehe...

brought some to office this morning - gusto naman nila - sarap daw! hehehe .. or gutom lang sila?? hmm?? the kids in the opis requested for more! hehehehe. masaya naman ako kasi nagustuhan nila ..

eto yung photos nung cake..

eto naman yung mga opismayts ko...

flat tops

my colleague ”Ligaya” gave me yesterday after lunch 2 pieces of the ricoa flat tops chocolate... medyo nabitin ako and when i went down to her office to submit some docs for signature (and to ask where she bought it) – she readily said – tomorrow i’ll buy you a packet! And she, of course, gave me some more .. :D

today, during our lunch break , she came up and said: mummy for you! and gave me a full pack of flat tops!!! yummy .. ( thanks ligaya-mwaahh !!!)

i offered my boss to taste it... and even told him that we used to have these chocos as our gift for the monito-monita (kris kringle) during our elementary days! hahaha... and he started teasing me and telling the others in the office that i’m travelling down the memory lane with these flat tops!

ahhh and the others started telling their stories about their memories of the flat tops :D.. indeed a travel !!!

this hand is of hot rod's ! trying to snatch a piece while it is being photographed.. :D

kayo? do you also have nice memories of "flat tops?" ??

soul searching (?)

a friend of mine came up one day and said: " i will be away for awhile - needs to do some soul-searching".... huh? si friendship ko mag soul-searching daw!?!?!?! hmm.. teka, ano na naman pakulo nito? sige makisakay muna... :D (ang maldita ko talaga ano? )

ako: why, what happened?
siya: i just need some time alone...need some thinking, i feel lost.
ako: (hmm lost daw?.. lost-mind maniwala pa ako!) pero siempre "good friend" ako (di ba?) asked ko: what do you intend to do? where to intend to go for your soul-searching?

take note si friendship seemed somewhat serious ha..kaya medyo i wanted to believe na my friendship is really in a state of "loss".

ako: talk to me.. what happened?
siya: nothing happened...i just wanted to be alone!
ako: (naku - baka something happened nga at magpakamatay ito - konsensiya ko pa!)
ako: (kulit ulit) .. we're friends di ba, i told you when you needed someone to talk to - i am just here.. ready to listen....
siya: basta.. i just wanted to be alone!
ako: eh what do you intend to do nga? where do you want to go?

siya: i feel like going home.... sa pinas.
ako: if you like i can check with my cousin and make arrangements at the convent in Laguna.. ok lang naman kina sister supe yun eh! you will be most welcome there.
siya: ano? sa kumbento? ano ka sira? yoko dun!
ako: huh? soul-searching ika mo? where else can you find a serene place kundi dun! maganda doon.. very quiet and the sisters will not bother you - they'll pray for you pa 24/7! ayaw mo ba nun? they can help you find your path, if ever...
siya: ayoko. ayoko dun! gusto ko sa ano - sa baguio kaya...
ako: ah okey din dun... malamig pa.. i can arrange din if you want me to...
siya: ano ka ba? okey lang - ako na lang...

ako: (maybe my friendship is just "pulling my leg" ika nga).. o siya bahala ka... basta if ever na matuloy ka - give me a call and let me know where you are so i can give you some numbers to call if you needed some "help" sa soul-searching mo.
siya: okey - thanks...

ako: eh - maitanong ko lang, what would you do if ever naman na matagpuan mo na soul mo?
siya: ewan ko.. siguro - i'm gonna say "hi".. where have you been?
ako: (note seryoso pa rin si friendship!) anong "hi" ka dyan??
siya: eh hindi ko pa nga rin alam kung ano magiging reaction ko if ever eh!

ako: tadyakan ko kaya si friendship?!?! pero mukhang seryoso naman , so hinayaan ko na lang. baka naman totoong "lost soul" nga siya... baka nga need niya talagang magsolo for the meantime. my friendship has been through a lot na rin the past years - she's a bit "self-less" you know. siguro itong "soul-searching" niya is the time that she wanted for her self.

watching my friend sitting quietly on the sofa, i wish i could help her go through this - whatever she's going through. she really seemed troubled of sort, pero she wouldn't talk to me about whatever is bugging /troubling her... she was even laughing and goofing around, but i sensed that it was a just a facade to hide the real emotions she is feeling within. i saw the sadness in her eyes - her eyes that used to glow even with the corniest of joke - and when she looked at me, i felt as though she was reaching out.

siguro my fault - kasi whenever she would come and tell me something - i most often than not - would only tease her - na para bang wala siyang karapatan to feel sad or bothered ba. i would often say: "hmm ikaw pa!" and she would then just laugh it off, so i really didn't know what was in her mind those times she came to me.

I think now i would really be a friend to her...to be just there for her...

to my friend, always remember i am here for you - will always be here for you.