flat tops

my colleague ”Ligaya” gave me yesterday after lunch 2 pieces of the ricoa flat tops chocolate... medyo nabitin ako and when i went down to her office to submit some docs for signature (and to ask where she bought it) – she readily said – tomorrow i’ll buy you a packet! And she, of course, gave me some more .. :D

today, during our lunch break , she came up and said: mummy for you! and gave me a full pack of flat tops!!! yummy .. ( thanks ligaya-mwaahh !!!)

i offered my boss to taste it... and even told him that we used to have these chocos as our gift for the monito-monita (kris kringle) during our elementary days! hahaha... and he started teasing me and telling the others in the office that i’m travelling down the memory lane with these flat tops!

ahhh and the others started telling their stories about their memories of the flat tops :D.. indeed a travel !!!

this hand is of hot rod's ! trying to snatch a piece while it is being photographed.. :D

kayo? do you also have nice memories of "flat tops?" ??

soul searching (?)

a friend of mine came up one day and said: " i will be away for awhile - needs to do some soul-searching".... huh? si friendship ko mag soul-searching daw!?!?!?! hmm.. teka, ano na naman pakulo nito? sige makisakay muna... :D (ang maldita ko talaga ano? )

ako: why, what happened?
siya: i just need some time alone...need some thinking, i feel lost.
ako: (hmm lost daw?.. lost-mind maniwala pa ako!) pero siempre "good friend" ako (di ba?) asked ko: what do you intend to do? where to intend to go for your soul-searching?

take note si friendship seemed somewhat serious ha..kaya medyo i wanted to believe na my friendship is really in a state of "loss".

ako: talk to me.. what happened?
siya: nothing happened...i just wanted to be alone!
ako: (naku - baka something happened nga at magpakamatay ito - konsensiya ko pa!)
ako: (kulit ulit) .. we're friends di ba, i told you when you needed someone to talk to - i am just here.. ready to listen....
siya: basta.. i just wanted to be alone!
ako: eh what do you intend to do nga? where do you want to go?

siya: i feel like going home.... sa pinas.
ako: if you like i can check with my cousin and make arrangements at the convent in Laguna.. ok lang naman kina sister supe yun eh! you will be most welcome there.
siya: ano? sa kumbento? ano ka sira? yoko dun!
ako: huh? soul-searching ika mo? where else can you find a serene place kundi dun! maganda doon.. very quiet and the sisters will not bother you - they'll pray for you pa 24/7! ayaw mo ba nun? they can help you find your path, if ever...
siya: ayoko. ayoko dun! gusto ko sa ano - sa baguio kaya...
ako: ah okey din dun... malamig pa.. i can arrange din if you want me to...
siya: ano ka ba? okey lang - ako na lang...

ako: (maybe my friendship is just "pulling my leg" ika nga).. o siya bahala ka... basta if ever na matuloy ka - give me a call and let me know where you are so i can give you some numbers to call if you needed some "help" sa soul-searching mo.
siya: okey - thanks...

ako: eh - maitanong ko lang, what would you do if ever naman na matagpuan mo na soul mo?
siya: ewan ko.. siguro - i'm gonna say "hi".. where have you been?
ako: (note seryoso pa rin si friendship!) anong "hi" ka dyan??
siya: eh hindi ko pa nga rin alam kung ano magiging reaction ko if ever eh!

ako: tadyakan ko kaya si friendship?!?! pero mukhang seryoso naman , so hinayaan ko na lang. baka naman totoong "lost soul" nga siya... baka nga need niya talagang magsolo for the meantime. my friendship has been through a lot na rin the past years - she's a bit "self-less" you know. siguro itong "soul-searching" niya is the time that she wanted for her self.

watching my friend sitting quietly on the sofa, i wish i could help her go through this - whatever she's going through. she really seemed troubled of sort, pero she wouldn't talk to me about whatever is bugging /troubling her... she was even laughing and goofing around, but i sensed that it was a just a facade to hide the real emotions she is feeling within. i saw the sadness in her eyes - her eyes that used to glow even with the corniest of joke - and when she looked at me, i felt as though she was reaching out.

siguro my fault - kasi whenever she would come and tell me something - i most often than not - would only tease her - na para bang wala siyang karapatan to feel sad or bothered ba. i would often say: "hmm ikaw pa!" and she would then just laugh it off, so i really didn't know what was in her mind those times she came to me.

I think now i would really be a friend to her...to be just there for her...

to my friend, always remember i am here for you - will always be here for you.

my friend and i

my friend and i
so bored one day
we went to the mall
to stroll the day away.

passing by the cinema;
my friend asked me:
“do you want to see a movie?”
being me, I replied: “do you want to?”
my friend retorted: “ i asked you first!”
and so i said: “okey!!”

into the cinema we went
and to our seats without a word.
the movie started
the movie ended
still without a word.

out we went
and continued to stroll;
the day passed by
without an uttered word.

my friend and i
got tired and headed home
took a cab and in silence,
held hands together
without looking at each other.

my friend and i
that’s how we were
we understood each other
even without an uttered word.

still on solitude . . .

What I must do is all that concerns me, not what the people think.

This rule, equally arduous in actual and intellectual life, may serve for the whole distinction between greatness and meanness. It is the harder, because you will always find those who think they know what is your duty better than you know it.

It is easy in the world to live after the world's opinion; it is easy in solitude to live after our own; but the great person is one who in the midst of the crowd keeps with perfect sweetness the independence of solitude.


(Ralph Waldo Emerson)

solitude...

The worst solitude is to be destitute of sincere friendship"
(Francis Bacon)

One Friend

(dan seals)

to my kitty...


I always thought you were the best
I guess I always will.
I always felt that we were blessed,
And I feel that way, still.
Sometimes we took the hard road,
But we always saw it through.
If I had only one friend left,
I'd want it to be you.

Sometimes the world was on our side;
Sometimes it wasn't fair.
Sometimes it gave a helping hand;
Sometimes we didn't care.
'Cause when we were together,
It made the dream come true.
If I had only one friend left,
I'd want it to be you.

Someone who understands me,
And knows me inside out.
And helps keep me together,
And believes without a doubt,
That I could move a mountain:
Someone to tell it to.
If I had only one friend left,
I'd want it to be you.

'Cause when we were together,
It made the dream come true.
If I had only one friend left,
I'd want it to be you.
Someone who understands me,
And knows me inside out.
And helps keep me together,
And believes without a doubt,
That I could move a mountain:
Someone to tell it to.
If I had only one friend left,
I'd want it to be you.

wonsaponatym....

there was a time....

of sweet memories:
of winter walks,
of silent conversations,
moments treasured...

then the time was gone...

and the sweet memories and
treasured moments were locked up
in the soft corner of my heart.

to be cherished forever ... in silence

a friend found anew ...

after more than twenty years, we found each other again... and it is wonderful! to find somebody that you have been with during your younger years.. college in fact.. memories flooded my mind - with the good times that we spent during those times....college days.. yes those days when we feel so free - no worries except the assignments!

reminiscing the past with my friend gave me some kind of "peace within"... ahh... those were the days: spending the week-ends at their place in batangas, exchanging pleasantries with her families, jokes with her brothers and cousins, even her parents are lovely people to be with. i missed all those times.

we parted ways after college, but have kept contact for sometime.. i attended her wedding and some weddings of our college friends as well. but things changed and we drifted apart... but she was always in my memory... whenever i have a talk with my "new circle" of friends - i will always make mention of her and the good times i had with her. she is more than a friend to me.. she is my sister, a second family to me and her family became my second family...

anyways - it is good to be in contact again with her... she called my number in manila.. hoping that it is still the same, took chance and viola! still the same number... my uncle gave her my cell no. and she sent me a text message to which i readily replied. gave her my email add and she sent me a mail which of course i replied to and that is the start of it ... again... our friendship.

i was not well the last few days.. and this morning she sent me a text message ... i was touched by it... made a lot of meaning to me... here it is:

the best friendships are made in the heart:

silent,

unwritten,

unbreakable by distance,

unchangeable by time.

once a FRIEND

always a FRIEND.



amy, you will always be a friend, my friend. i missed you too!!! we'll see each other soon...

crime...

i accused myself of a crime
i tried to deny
but guilt weakens me...
i am guilty ... that

i am in love...